Went to the pub tonight, first major challenge as quite a high risk situation for me. If I’m in a pub, I tend to want a pint or several. Stuck to pints (there’s just something reassuring about a pint!) but this time they were of Coke or orange and lemonade, not cider. Still enjoyed myself as I was meeting friends who are always very entertaining company, and who I used to work with at Mind in Taunton & West Somerset, where we would drink a lot of tea together. Still I couldn’t help feeling that alcohol would have enhanced my enjoyment. As the evening wore on and the pub got busier and louder, I had that feeling of being somehow separate, on a different wavelength – sober, basically.
I’m a quiet, introverted type and I often feel I’m “two drinks behind” everyone else, and a couple of drinks really help me to feel at ease, more confident and less inhibited. That’s definitely one of the positives of alcohol for me, not worrying so much socially. There’s a downside to that too of course…embarrassing myself by talking complete rubbish, getting an idea in my head that I won’t let go, falling over, losing my stuff, and relying on alcohol as a social prop.
It’s nice to know I can be in a pub and not have to drink alcohol, and that there’s no chance of waking up tomorrow with a hangover (which seem so much more hellish as I get older), so I think on the whole the pros of abstinence outweigh the cons, at least for the timebeing…but that doesn’t mean I wasn’t tempted.
It’s now a third of the way through Dry January, the “honeymoon period” is well and truly over and as another dry weekend kicks off, there’s still a way to go before I can sit a a pub with a pint of cider. Please sponsor me at http://uk.virginmoneygiving.com/bethanfisher – running total currently a very respectable £277.